ok, the title's kinda exaggerated
but i have been having a hard time with my chest. it kinda hurts and ive been blaming it to bad posture caused by sleeping in sofas.
But it doesnt feel like that anymore, so i'm gonna have it checked out on wed.

im hell scared ...even backout on getting drunk tonight.

On the good side of things ive been enjoying a bunch of indie comic books, i got "amazing joy buzzards, summer blonde, lost at sea, scott pilgrim, and spider-man loves mary jane" (ok, spiderman aint so indie).
For some reason their all sappy books that wasn't intentional

On the work side..i just finished directing my first commercial and preproding my second one. fun fun!

you fit in my puzzle.
i dont fit in yours.

sucks big time.

There are reasons why instinct tells you not to do certain things.
Today I went against instict, and got what i deserved.

A reality check

penniless days are over for now. getting ready for a vacation.
not going anywhere, im just gonna bum in my house for 2 months.
(and i wish i really do this time...last time i tried that i ended up working after 2 weeks)

This year was a complete mess.. i lost track of a lot of things so yah, i need this vacation and do damage control.

theres a lot of things in my life that i seem to forget. If it weren't for other people I don't think id remember them.
like, everything before grade 5.
or how my friend crashed his car on our front gate in drunk stupor.
or how my ex happend (no ones seen that so i have no idea how).
and things i planned to do this year that was supposed to make my year worth it.

they're happy memories and sometimes really important memories, it really sucks that i couldn't bring them to mind every time i want to. I guess i'll blame it on being such a detached person. if im here my mind wanders there. and if im there my mind wanders here.
what kinda shit is that anyway.

mishaps has been non stop since june. jeezus! they just keep leading to another. and im sure im not even close to the end of it.
and going around with 0 cash is kinda scary.
my gahd, whats happening to me

I finally got money last week (after being bankrupt for a while) and asked mau to deposit it to my ATM account.
then my ATM got lost in the process, so i froze the account for safety,
and prepared an afidavit of loss. but i couldnt get the card coz i dont have enough cash to pay for the
lost ATM fee thing. coz all my money was inside the ATM.
got through a week walking around town with 0 cash or any access to it.
and thank the lord that i have a restaurant that can feed me for free.
then yesterday i got checks from projects. (AH FINALLY SPENDING MONEY)
then today as i tried encashing it i found out that my driver's license has been expired for a year.
hence i couldn't encash my checks for lack of valid IDs.
bank teller told me to deposit it to my account. (which i cant coz its frozen)
now i need to find money so i could renew my ID, or get my lost ATM processed.
so I could deposit my money and wait 3 days so i could get my money.
and hopefully start living normal again and end my STUPID. FUCKING. YEAR!!!!